I wish I could say that after nearly a year of job hunting rejection gets easier, but it doesn’t. It’s painful, hurtful and depressing to receive rejection letter after rejection letter. It numbs you and makes you feel worthless.
In the middle of March, I received an email from a social media company asking me to come in for an interview scheduled for a month later. I figured I’d have a job by then, but still accepted the invitation. It’s mid-March for crying out loud and I knew I’d land something before then.
In the meantime, I went on a few interviews in New York, but nothing came of them. Someone from the burger joint Red Robin called me for an interview one day, but I said I’d call them back because I didn’t want another part time gig, I wanted a full-time job.
But a few days later, I called Red Robin back and went in for my first interview. I figured I didn’t have anything to lose. They put potential employees through three interviews before asking them to come on board. I went through the process and they said they wouldn’t get back to me for a while.
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One month later I still didn’t have a job, so I went to the social media interview. I really thought I would be a good fit for the position based off the job description.
It was a brand spanking new position and the social media coordinator would run the show. The employee would promote about 300 clients through social media outlets and work full-time. It sounded too good to be true. I have a ton of editorial, social media, magazine, PR and writing experience so I figured I was a great candidate. They’d be conducting interviews all week and I wouldn’t hear from them until the following week. I didn’t want to think about it too much or else I’d risk not getting the job.
The same day I checked my spam folder and found two emails from companies who wanted to speak with me about coming in for interviews. They were dated for mid-March and it was April 14. I was pissed, livid and annoyed that these emails landed in my spam folder. I called the one company and they filled the position, while the other was stationed in New York, which I don’t want right now.
At the same time, I felt good vibrations from the social media coordinator job and really wanted it.
I ended up landing the Red Robin waitress position, but felt sort of crappy having to take, yet another part-time gig instead of a full-time job.
A few days later, I received a daunting email from the social media company rejecting me.
I was frustrated, pissed and most of all very upset. I wanted to ask them a few things – did any of the candidates you interviewed have two magazine internships in New York? Did they have as much passion, drive, enthusiasm and determination as I? I’m pretty sure they didn’t.
I’ve been through hell and back. I went to NYC two to three days a week for Family Circle magazine and Good Housekeeping magazine internships. I’ve had countless internships, freelance positions and part-time gigs and nothing has come of them. I have no clue what these companies are searching for. How the hell are people landing jobs while I have a ton of experience and haven’t had any success?
A few weeks back, I interviewed for a public relations job and the woman was surprised at the amount of experience I had, yet couldn’t land a job. She was shocked that I was unpaid for all of my freelance work. I’m shocked. I have a nauseous feeling in my stomach that won’t go away. But at the same time, I can’t give up. I need to keeping on trucking. I must pick myself up and continue on or surrender at the thought of rejection. Or at least that’s what should happen.
I feel like I have so much experience, yet I can’t land a fulltime job. What am I doing wrong? Should I ask these hiring managers what I was missing?