I have been looking for full-time job for nearly nine months and still haven’t found anything.
I’m going crazy. I feel like I am going nuts sitting on my computer job hunting for hours every day. So, where has this job search gotten me? An interview with shady salesman at a random Sam’s Club in Philadelphia.
I went to this particular interview last week. Shortly into the interview I realized that this position had absolutely nothing to do with what I wanted. The man asked me, “So, what attracted you to our company?” Literally, with butterflies in my stomach because I so didn’t research the company (whoops), I said, “Well, I know it involves social media.”
Wrong. It had nothing to do with that. Instead, it was about going to retail stores to sell products. Yes, I need a job right now, but I’ve been in sales and it blows. I hate having to convince someone to buy something when I don’t even give two shits about the product itself. Do you really think I want to stand around and push random crap on other people? I’m so not a pushy person and it would explode in my face.
My internship, which is two days a week, is ending soon. But, there’s no word on when yet, which is good. When I’m not at my internship, I babysit, but that’s in the morning. I have the rest of the day to delightfully browse the Internet for job opportunities.
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So far I’ve received three phone calls for jobs. I initially thought they were promising, but soon realized they were similar to the Sam’s Club hoax. Why is it so hard to find a job? I’ve had two internships at Good Housekeeping magazine and one at Family Circle magazine. Shouldn’t it be easier for me to land something? I thought these internships were supposed to help me, not hurt me.
I have spent so much time and money traveling from my home in Pennsylvania to New York for these internships. Please tell me it’s worth it because I’m not sure if I believe it. I totally get that there are people who literally have no experience in my industry and are frustrated as well. I mean, I am sort of lucky that I’m even rubbing elbows with people in the magazine industry. Everyone wants in and I can’t blame them. It looks so glamorous. At times, it’s hard work though. I’m not going to lie.
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I just want a job. I just want to be out of the house and not have cabin fever. I want to travel between 30-45 minutes to my office, not almost two hours. I want to spend less money on this damn commute. I want to earn enough money to buy myself something special once in a while and pay off my student loans.
I don’t want to feel like absolute shit looking for jobs and feeling sorry for myself. I want to get off my ass and work. I can’t stand waiting around. I can’t stand sifting through jobs and having no luck landing anything. This is the absolute worst time of my life. I hate it.
I can’t even begin to explain how I feel. I feel as if I just want to crawl in bed and sleep. I feel defeated. I just want to throw up because I feel so down. I am absolutely depressed. I feel like I’m going to cry when I get a rejection email from a job I really wanted. I’m in a complete funk and I’m not sure how to escape it.
Well, one way would be to GET A JOB!