When I was a little girl I was obsessed with weddings. I begged my mother to buy me bridal magazines and I would spend hours on the computer making extremely detailed PowerPoint presentations of the different types of weddings I might one day have.
There was the beach wedding, the city wedding, the country wedding and the royal wedding (to Prince William of course). I thought about all the details: flowers, cake, reception venue and the band.
My brain on weddings
And I truly believed that I was going to marry Prince William. I had this very elaborate plan. I was going to become a congressional intern and then I would ignite a relationship with a single freshmen senator.
After the senator became President and I became first girlfriend I would begin my charitable work. I’d start a foundation and then I’d speak with our allies, the Brits, and arrange for a meeting with their heads of state. Prince William would be at the meeting, and we’d get to talking and fall in love. I would ditch the President, Prince William and I would get married and I would become the Queen of England!
This was a very realistic plan in my 10 year old eyes.
Movie Star Bride
But it was all fun and games. I’ve always had a very vivid and crazy imagination and these fantasies were often the only thing that would get me through boring geometry and chemistry classes. And it wasn’t just weddings too. I had fantasies about meeting my idol, celebrity chef Rachel Ray or staring in my own reality TV show.
Sometimes, I still create all these crazy fantasies in my head. For a while I didn’t tell anyone, not even my closest friends, because I thought it was weird. I was an adult, playing make-believable was for children.
But the other day, this guy held the door for me on the metro and oh my god guys, he was so cute! I had a long train ride ahead and so the wedding planning began. Since we met on the train, I thought we would get married in Union Station. “How cute!” I thought. It was fun! And the train ride was over before I knew it.
While I was out at the bar that night, I told my friend about my elaborate fantasy with the man I had only briefly met.
And you know what? She didn’t think it was weird at all! She does the same thing!
To be clear, I’m not some wedding obsessed chick whose one goal in life is to get married. In fact, I’m not even sure I will get married which is why I find this whole thing so weird. I don’t have a wedding Pinterest board, I don’t watch “Say Yes To The Dress,” I don’t have a boyfriend and I am terrified of commitment.
It’s not that I am against getting married, but I don’t like to predict the future and I don’t want to jinx anything. Who knows what will happen!
But I still have these crazy fantasizes. It’s more fun and games than anything else. And I am not ashamed. It’s entertaining and passes the time when I am bored. There’s nothing wrong with dreaming about what could happen in your life.
So don’t be ashamed if you like to play make-believe. (But also don’t take it too far because then we will have a Lisa Nowak situation).