I swore I would never work at another retail store after working at Barnes & Noble for three years.
In October 2013, I obtained an internship at Family Circle Magazine and told myself I was done with the retail world. I would fulfill my dream of becoming a magazine writer and never look back.
I thought I was set once I received word of this fabulous internship. Even before the internship was completed, I began searching for a job to cover my ass. I searched, browsed and looked while I had the internship so I wouldn’t be caught by the end. I was over prepared and ready to get that dream job once I was finished in April.
But, just like everything else, it was too good to be true. My preparations didn’t do a thing because after my last day at Family Circle, I still had nothing. Sure, I had plenty of connections, more experience and I knew what I wanted. I geared myself more toward PR/social media. I freelanced more, attended events for the blog I write for Small Chick Big Deals and tried to put myself out there.
However, nothing happened. Nothing followed this internship. I’m not saying it was a waste because I learned a decent amount, I’m just saying, I expected an entry level job after this. Maybe my expectations were too high?
Anyway, from April to May, I sifted through countless sites to see if I could find anything. Instead — out of desperation — I had to settle for a part-time gig as a waitress. I did not want it. I hated it. I would walk in and look absolutely miserable. Now, if you know me, you’re aware of my 100-watt smile. You’ll often find me laughing and smiling, not looking disgusted. I was so unhappy and as bad as it was to not earn money, I had to get out. So, I sort of quit.
After that, I needed something to fill in the gaps, so I started working at a coffee shop. That’s what I’m doing right now. Working as a barista and never did I think I’d be back here. Never did I think I’d be back in this position. I’m asking you—what’s the point of college?
I contemplated going back to school for nutrition, but I decided against it simply because there’s no guarantee I’ll find something. What happens if I don’t? I’ll be back where I started. It’s not worth it to me. I will never ever forget this time in my life. I would say with certainty that I would never go back to this age because other than my relationship, it’s been absolutely horrible.
I cried tonight. I never cry. I can do better than this and I know it. I didn’t earn my associate degree and bachelor’s degree to work a part-time gig. I did it because I want to earn decent money and do what I love — writing.
I’m miserable and I’ve hit rock bottom. I keep telling my parents that I’m beyond the point of caring. I just want to work Monday-Friday and do something I love. Sure, it’s easier said than done. I’m competing against class of 2013 and 2014 now.
This isn’t just me complaining about wanting a job. No, this is more of a precaution for all these high school students beginning college. I’m telling you — please do everything you can while you’re in school, like internships, volunteer, freelance, write for free. Please don’t end up in this boat.
Sure, I’ve have a crap load of experience, but I want you get 10 times my experience so you don’t feel like me.